Engagements and weddings

In the past few months, I have been to 1 wedding, been invited to another one, heard of 3 engagements and saw my ex-bf get married. Also listened to dozens of my friends talk about their plan to "get engaged".

This is making me really depressed! It made me realized that my peers and I have entered into a different stage of life. Long are the beautiful days when all of us live freely, enjoying our youth, having fun and only have to think about our studies. Marriage is a scary thing. It means you can't live selfishly anymore. You have another person and a family to look after. You are less likely to take risks, to follow your passions and will likely have to go the "safe way". Marriage isn't like shopping. You can't return what you don't like. You're stuck with that person for the rest of your life (or face a painful divorce). What's worse, married people only hang out together. All they talk about is babies, buying a house, sending kids to school etc. If only we could be young and free forever!

I have been semi-proposed by guys multiple times before, but have never thought I could say yes. Just the thought of saying those wedding pledge scares me. If I get married, I need to be damn sure that I really mean it when I say those vows.

"Will you listen to his inmost thoughts, be considerate and tender in your care of him, and stand by him faithfully in sickness and in health, and, preferring him above all others, accept full responsibility for him every necessity for as long as you both shall live? do you vow that you will do everything in your power to make your love for him a growing part of your life? Will you continue to strengthen it from day to day and week to week with your best resources? Will you love him as a person, respect him as an equal, sharing joy as well as sorrow, triumph as well as defeat?"

I sometimes feel like an outcast. Like Carrie in "Sex and the City", being the only single girl and getting invited to all these couples/family events and getting that pity look.

If this goes on, I'm going to start hating weddings! It got me thinking, if I ever get married (or if someone ever wants to marry me :P), I'll probably just get hitch in Las Vegas to get it over and done with. Won't have to waste time and money on the "perfect wedding" that lasts 3 hours. Ha ha...

But you'll see when "my wedding" comes...

P.S. I also think prenuptial agreements should be the default, not the exception.

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