I think someone must have drugged me yesterday. I had a really shitty day (actually my life right now is a big mess) but in the evening I was so hyper and happy, for no reason! Good mood like this do not come very often so I might as well enjoy it.
Maybe it’s the April’s Fool prank that I was able to pull off the other day. I somehow was able to convince most of my friends on Facebook and Yahoo that I just got engaged. I think it was the profile picture of the diamond ring, me mentioning dieting and working out to prepare for the wedding, planning a wedding in VN and the US that even some skeptics were fooled. I had a blast doing this and would have kept it up until the end of April Fools but suddenly felt bad for some heartbroken guys out there… People kept asking me “Who’s the lucky guy???” Well, the lucky guy does not know that he’s lucky, or else there would have been a real engagement, right? I’ve been thinking, maybe I’ll save up some money to one day buy my own diamond ring. I would be able to get the exact ring I wanted and not have to worry about the guy choosing the wrong ring…
These days what kept me happy are random crazy thoughts I have throughout the day. I’m forever a dreamer and a romantic at heart. I am always feeding my wild imagination with silly ideas, theories and inspiration for my novel some day. I usually lie in bed listening to the song “I’ll stand by you” by The Pretenders over and over again. Usually this is what I wanted to say to the guy I love. But this time, the more I listen, the more I feel like it is singing to me, just like what my friends have been doing for me, being there for me and loving me the whole time. I started thinking about my life this past 10 years and jumped to my computer to call Luan.
We met in high school 10 years ago. I was a skinny girl with thick glasses, a braided hair, in a white ao dai. He was an awkward, nerdy guy who had this crush on me and was sneaking peaks at me. “Luan honey, it’s been 10 years since we’ve known each other. Looking back, at that time, could you ever have imagined us like this, right here? Did you ever think our lives would be this way? Isn’t it funny, that I was your inspiration in high school to help you study harder and become a good student, but throughout the years, it was you who have always been pulling me out of the mud, pushing me to go on living when I felt down and wanted to give up? You were always the first person I called when I wanted to cry. You were there for me through every heartbreak” “I know honey, be strong and keep on fighting. Here’s to another 10 years of trying hard and improving ourselves!”
Life is like a sine curve, with its ups and downs. There will be moments of uttermost happiness but also times of incredible pain, misery and disappointments. But once you have hit rock bottom, there is no other way but to rise up again.
Love is like holy wine. It tastes so bitter and so sweet at the same time. You want to save it forever, but good wines are meant to be drank. If it’s only saved up and put to show, its existence is pointless. You know that once you finish the bottle of wine, you won’t have anymore, but you might as well enjoy the taste while drinking it.
