Today I am in a (rare) good mood. It’s a very special day indeed. However, this is probably going to be my least coherent blog so far.
I woke up from a very beautiful dream. Although it was just a dream, it made me happy for at least half of the morning.
This day 33 years ago, Vietnam won the American war. This day 9 years ago, a high school friend of mind said he liked me. To this day, he’s still one of my best friends who really cares about me and has always there for me.
Talking about guys, today I also talked to a college friend who I haven’t talked to for over a year. He was my best friend in college. We met on the very first day of Orientation at Brandeis. Although our friendship has gone through ups and downs, we have always been together, shared our deepest (dirty) secrets and feelings. He is one of the few people who understands me and accepts me for who I am. We shared many long nights studying (and sleeping on the couch) in Shapiro Student Center. He had seen me cry, he had seen me fall in love, he had seen me heartbroken. We have had really bad fights when we didn’t talk for months and then one day one of us would burst out “Damn, I miss you”. And the other one would say “I miss you too. Can we talk again?”
And so one day he got a girlfriend. And his girlfriend doesn't like me much. And so for one whole year I didn’t see him or talk to him. It was a really lonely year. I had other friends, I had fun, I had a good life. But no one could replace him. Yes, he’s not perfect. There are things about him that just drives me crazy. But he’s the only one who I can be completely honest with. I hate him for choosing his girlfriend over our friendship (of course, who wouldn’t) but it also hurts me to see him get hurt and having to go through life by himself (without me scolding him every step of the way).
And so today, suddenly he IMed me. And we started talking. And I said “We used to be bestfriends, and then we became strangers after you got a girlfriend. So now you’re single. Can we be friends again?” And he said “You bet. I miss you so much.” “I miss you too”. There was so much I wanted to tell him. Things I’ve kept to myself not being able to share with anyone. And guess what he said after listening to me? “I heard you whine about these issues 3 years ago. I can’t believe I am listening to the same shit again. That’s why I love you.” Ha ha ha…
I am so glad to have you back in my life. I know we will continue to fight and maybe not talk again. But I know we will always be bestfriends and thank you for being there for me!
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